L.O.V.E

Bahkan untuk mencintai seseorang tidaklah semudah membalik telapak tangan..

tapi kenapa mencinta harus dipersulit lagi dengan:

1. the one who you love is the one you shouldn't fall in love with..

2. you do love him/her but you are not able to say it because of the stupid silly situation and condition..

3. you do love him/ her; you want to shout out loud letting every human in this world know how much you love him/her; but maybe after you say it your relationship with him/ her won't be the same as it is now..

4. you are not brave enough to say it to him/her..

5. he/she is not yours..

6. ...

Doesn't it hurt to keep your bursting feeling towards him/ her..??

Why should people sacrifice so much only for loving sum1..??

Even for loving someone is not as easy as ABC..

Why should people sacrifice more..?

loving and to be loved..

'Love'..

a word that -they say- unites 2 people..

is actually not more than a word that complicates 2 people..

-aRee-

settled

well apapun yg terjadi, gw tau lu ga ada nyerahnya ar, soal krisis pede dan krisis jati diri mah ibarat kerikil di jalan idup loe haha

elu gitu loh, seberapa berubah2nya orang pasti sifat akarnya gag ilang

delusion membantu orang lebih maju, it eliminates your fear at times, but it fakes yourself most of the time

ar, for there is a way for everything

jadi no matter how bad life is, pasti ada jalan keluarnya

iyah lo keras

gag gampang ketabrak kanan kiri

kokoh kyk colossus

iyah dr dulu tuh gw demen bgt mental lu yg "I LIVE MY LIFE SERIOUSLY"

no doubt lah lu jg one day two days pasti mo give up, tapi gag tau nape ye lu thu yg di atas bgt menurut gw

visi lo jelas, misi lu ada

not many woman have the mentality to be the leader

iya dr dulu sampe sekarang 1 cerita yg selalu gw share ke orang lain

ini gw gag melebih2kan dan gag sok mendramatisir yah, gini2

gw selalu bilang ke orang, di balik pria2 besar, pasti ada wanita yang lebih besar, dan dulu gw pernah punya wanita itu

gag akan ada gw yg gini tanpa dia

dan gw rasa, siapapun yg nantinya bisa nangkep hati lu, pasti bakal jadi pria besar

never a slight second i doubt this thought, cuz you were and you are bigger than all the girls i knew and i know

-thanks to a guy who unconsciously settles me down tonight-

Tiba Waktunya

tiba waktunya kubangun

berdiri tegas dan berani

menyambut hadirnya

yang enggan kusambut

di satu sisi kuingin milikinya

tapi

terlalu pengecut diri ini tuk hadapinya

sudah kunanti-nanti dirinya

semenjak ku mulai mengenal dirinya

satu tahun yang lalu

sudah ku melangkah lebih

tuk kenal dirinya lebih

satu tahun yang lalu

berbagai cara ku tempuh

saat mereka nikmati angin sepoi

ku nikmati mahligai

tapi

tetap saja

terlalu pengecut diri ini tuk hadapinya

aku tak siap

dan mungkin

tak kan pernah siap

sampai waktu memaksaku tuk bersiap

-aRee-

Kangen

KANGEN

Kangen Indonesia

Kangen Jakarta

Kangen Jelambar

Kangen Rumah

Kangen Papa

Kangen Mama

Kangen Koko

Kangen Sahabat

Kangen Mantan

Kangen Martabak Bangka

Kangen Kuetiaw Goreng Telor

Kangen Siaran Radio Jakarta

Kangennnnn

even though the travelling-abroad is waiting for me tomorrow

coz ALL I NEED IS:

sayap tuk terbangkanku ke peluknya..

Why God created us differently..

Why God created us differently

if God only wants to be worshipped

in one way?

That's why God created LOVE.

So all the differences could be UNITED.

Kenapa Allah menciptakan kita beda-beda

kalau Dia cuma ingin disembah dengan

satu cara?

Makany Allah nyiptain CINTA.

Biar yang beda-beda bisa NYATU.

That's one part of the trailer of Indonesian movie; 'cin(T)a'

is it really true?

or...

others argue:

to Love doesn't mean to Pocess

so,,

when you fall in love with someone

that u shouldn't..

should you

go ahead

and

fight

to get your love?

if you answer: YES..

is that means

that your ego is just too high

that

you HURT people around you

you SACRIFICE them

only for the sake of your ego..?

if your answer: NO..

is that means

you are a COWARD

that you even don't have any BRAVERY

to go get your love..?

then, choice is (again and again) in your hand

(coz life is about choosing):

PEOPLE AROUND YOU

OR

YOU?

-aRee-

Wanna...

wanna go to driving school here to get driving license

(which costs 250,000 yen = 2500 USD)

wanna shop

without looking at the price

wanna travel to

London, Italy, Vatican, Barcelona,

India, Jerusalem, Australia, Mongolia,

Vietnam, Prague, Korea, Kenya,

South Africa, Srilanka, Germany, France

all Indonesia's islands, all Provinces of Japan...

in conclusion:

need lots of money...!!

-aRee-

ah yahh,,,

I'm waiting for:

3GS white color iPhone...

yeayyy~~~!!!

(hmmm,, I hope I can manage it

by not terminating the 26 months contract

which means

I have to stay in Japan

for at least another 26 months

while I will finish my undergraduate in 12 months

which means

another 14 months of working here after graduating

which means

have to get job-offer...!!)

-aRee-

PMS

I
(although I perfectly understand that it's kodrat wanita to have menstruation)
personally hate PMS
(Pre-Menstruation Syndrome)...
There is only ONE REASON why I hate PMS:
PMS causes too significant CHANGE
in my mood; my emotion..

suddenly wanna get mad like a mad cow,,
suddenly wanna cry,,
suddenly wanna escape from my daily routine without having enough power and will to do it,,

suddenly become sooo silent,,
suddenly become sooo mellow,,
suddenly become sooo brutal,,
suddenly become sooo annoying,,
suddenly become sooo........

it's sooo hard to push down my emotion with my limited ability...
I know that I shouldn't be like that
or shouldn't do that
or shouldn't say that or...
BUT I just can't bear~~

I need quite a long time (around 3-4days) to get back to the normal-me..
it means that 10% of my 1 month life is being filled with the PMS,,
and it also means that 10% of my life since I know that I got soo influenced with my PMS is my PMS period which is unproductive and annoying...

will this come to an end??
or...
it wouldn't and what i should do is:
'enjoy it!! coz it's what i've been given from God'..??

and now,,
i'am perfectly in my PMS..

-aRee