how do you feel if:
you are in a very-close-3-members-friendship and two of them have already had their boy while you are still single..?
me..??
Happy..?? For sure..
coz their happiness means mine..
coz looking at their smile also makes me smile..
Lonely..?? Yeapp..
coz they gonna spend their dinner and their weekend with their boy..not with me..
coz they gonna spend their time texting their boy,, not me..
Sad..?? umm..yup..
coz you should share their attention and affection with their boy..
coz they won't need my extra attention (coz sum1 has already replaced me)..
Then,, I should adapt myself to the changing situation..
I should stop asking 'what and where and how we gonna spend this weekend..?'
coz it will make them confuse to answer (coz maybe this weekend they already have their own plan with their boy..) and I'll feel sorry for their confusion..and I also don't want to make them feel sorry to me coz they gonna let me spend my weekend myself..
They gonna reduce the frequency of asking me 'what and where and how we gonna spend this weekend..?'
coz they gonna feel sorry knowing I gonna spend it alone while they gonna having fun with their boy..
And coz both parties (in-a-relationship party and single-party) feel sorry each other.. there wont be any question about 'what and where and how we gonna spend this weekend..?'
Sooo,, the conclusion is:
I should adapt myself..
There are sooo many things out there that can be done by myself..
Things that I couldn't enjoy coz I was not alone..
For example: reading books, watching movies/ tv programs, enjoying my room, etc.. (I haven't got any ideas actually..)
This gonna be a great chance of getting used to hitori-gurasi when I got my job later in Japan (If I can get one).. (that's why I like the drame 'o-hitorisama'.. I like the way she enjoys everything alone..and I want to be like her..)
It's somehow irritating,,
but I will make it FUN and ENJOYABLE, trust me..
-aRee-
