after knowing this and that -although I still can't swallow it well-, I feel quite weird realizing my tear gland worked well.. soo well that I should take more careful care of my unstable feeling when I speak to prevent myself sobbing right beside him.. and the worst's it took me 180mins to get myself home welcomed by my bad mood mom..

What's this?

SAD of knowing the truth?

AFRAID to face the reality?

DISAPPOINTED?

All mixed into one..?

don't want to be selfish or too COWARD to fight?

go with the flow or GIVE UP?

u'r always too afraid to face the risk, aren't u..?

I can't promise anything to you..

yes, it's because I still have lots of things that I wanna do, too many dreams to be realized..

but the most important point's u can't ensure me that u're the one that I should fight for, dear.. -or maybe u're just not?'

is it "u can't" or "u haven't" or "u're hopeless" ?

this's been predicted and the rule of the game's been decided far before today..

time's up and the game has ended..

Has the game ended?

Hope that I am really brave and strong enough to bear the consequences..

-aRee-